My midlife journal, quick reflections....
- Apr 7
- 5 min read
Welcome here.
Yes, this is the revolution where we set a new intention for our lives, for croning, for our business, health, prosperity, love, and light, and the well-being of every being on this planet and Mother Gia herself.
Welcome in.
Today I am sharing with you a little bit of a snippet here from my journal.
I don’t know what your journaling process is. It’s not a diary. No, it’s a journal. What is your journaling process?
This is my heartfelt book. It’s with me all the time and I’m always pouring into it. Some days though, there are days when that doesn’t happen. And yet this is my trusted place for me to pray on the page and put it all down and say what it is that, like you do.
We all do it. We all have somewhere, if we’re journalers, if we love the process.
Energies Are Changing
Now at the beginning of this kind of time where energies are changing, fire horses in Saturn, Neptune, Aries, Uranus coming back into Gemini in April.
There are big shifts happening here.
And there are immense energies that you can feel. I know you can feel it. I can feel it.
And my writing has become bigger and more pronounced and more kind of like this.
But I wanted to share something here.
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From My Journal
What happened was I published the book, Cast a New Spell, and then more came through.
In fact I have written in here that this is not the definitive. There is more coming through the whole time.
So I am going back in and tweaking little pieces here and there. I’ve stopped now.
And this was a big tweak that I had to go back in and make.
This was on the 18th of February, so not long ago.
Spiritual leadership as we know it is having its greatest tower moment ever with people being exposed and trusts being betrayed.
We know that the light is pouring in and that we are the light leaders.
We are catching this light and it’s up to us to remain grounded as healers and guides.
We are now having pedestals knocked down.
We are witnessing this.
The world is left shattered and in a place of disbelief.
How do we navigate this?
Our nervous systems need so much loving tender care at the moment.
We are being left hurt, astounded, and for many of us, interestingly, unsurprised.
I’m not surprised.
It doesn’t mean I’m not feeling it.
It doesn’t mean I’m not hurting or feeling the compassion for anybody that is in the backlash of other people’s power choices.
It’s abhorrent.
And I’m not surprised because how long can we keep going with this?
The Collapse and The Feminine
As the patriarchy, as that model comes down, we will see more and more of this.
And yet the divine feminine, she is here.
She is here holding it.
She has been waiting to come in this way for forever.
So we use her as our light.
There is a reason why a lack of resonance with certain teachers is an inner intuitive GPS to stay away and find our own way.
There is a reason why we feel that in the body.
That feeling of no.
Cringe.
I don’t need to go there with that person.
I don’t want to be a dot in the landscape for someone on a stage telling me how I should lead my life.
I find it in my own way through the divine with beautiful teachers that are not trying to enforce anything.
There is a reason why this collapse is happening.
We are being forced to see and recognize our own power and to trust it.
A New Leadership
In this great comedown, there is a new rising.
As the veil dissolves and we are left standing, holding the invitation to be the leaders that we proclaim to be.
This will look and feel very different to what we have become accustomed to.
The sage on the stage, the guide, the teacher, the guru whose intent is driven by ego, fame, notoriety, and exposure will each have their day of reckoning in the new era landscape.
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Coming Back to Cause
So what is ours to do?
Ours is to be centered in compassion and love.
Knowing that right here and now whatever it is that we are transmitting we are affecting the field.
We are affecting cause.
We are not affecting the end result immediately.
We are affecting the cause.
We have to go back to cause.
When I treat, I use spiritual mind treatment which does not focus on the world of effect.
It focuses on the cause and works on changing the cause within me in consciousness.
You can do this through journaling.
You can go back and come back to knowing that everything is light.
Journaling and Truth
Journaling is beautiful because it helps us to get to that place within where we can see that the words that we are writing are creating our reality.
Yes, it is great for emotional release.
We need to get things out on paper.
We need to say what we are feeling.
Especially when we do not have outlets in the day.
Journal.
It is a power place.
A safe haven.
And then we come back within ourselves and know the truth.
The truth is that light is here always.
Menopausing Awakening
Something happens when we menopause, when we are croning.
Our hearts open.
We come into the acceptance that there is something greater going on.
It is a blown open experience.
It taps us into the divine source, the mother source that is here and living as us.
Closing
So come back to journaling.
Find your own practice.
Find a way to express yourself on the page.
We cannot deny what is happening in the world.
But we can deny the meaning that we are putting into it.
Come from observation and truth.
We have compassion.
We show up.
We are not separate from this.
It is all one experience.
And because of that, as we change, everything changes.
There is a ripple.
More to come.
Menopausing with divine intention.
That is what this channel is all about.
Blessings and love to you.
Get your journal out.
If you haven’t got one, get a piece of paper and a pencil.
Write from your heart.
Let your heart lead the way.
Feel the light.
Know the love.
Beaming out. Beaming in.
Blessings, light, love, and peace.
And as always, like, subscribe, share if you feel to, and leave your comments.
It would be beautiful to hear your experience of journaling and how you are being more intentional right now.
Blessings.
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