I was 47, sobbing my heart out in my car on Brighton seafront, numb with upset and as I looked up to the sky in a moments reprieve - mascara mixed in with snot ! all I could see was the hugest rainbow I'd ever seen speaking to me and showing me that ALL was OK. However painful it might be, knowing that I had reached that final straw in my relationship and feeling this was it, I knew deep down that this was my perfect opportunity to stand up for myself, love myself, to listen to my heart and to move on. On that day I walked away with my daughter, from my life as I knew it to be. A life that had its greatness and along with it, hidden sadness and hurt that kept me in a place of stuck and low self worth ! On this RAINBOW Wednesday I vulnerably made the decision to listen to my heart and to honor myself fully, to stop people pleasing and own my own stuff ! As I stepped away from an pattern of dysfunction that I had willingly participated in all my life, I decided to walk away from relationships that supported keeping me small and unheard. I grabbed what I truly needed of my possessions, I left the rest behind and I walked through a new doorway, feeling a mix of scared and empowered to begin a new life.
I had traveled many times alone, exploring and seeking spiritual connection, from living in a Temple in Thailand to embracing many paths to Truth, this I had done all my life... and yet now in my new awareness, I was ready and willing to go deeper. Id made the decision to follow my heart and this lead me to the States to peruse my dream of becoming a life coach. It was on a hot energized day 2012 in the midst of this coaching qualification retreat programme in San Diego, that I walked a Labyrinth for the first time. On this walk I experienced a deep spontaneous awakening that shook my very being to the core. I truly healed My Life, this was a part of my need to step into the new and this experience shifted the course of my life again. This bitter sweet rebirth completely rocked my world and opened my heart to knowing a truth that Id been seeking for all of my life. I came home !
Coming back to the UK was not easy, here I was, knowing a new way and a new beginning and I was pulled by the tension of trying to fit this into my daily life. I knew that I needed to integrate myself with my experience into my life at home and this shook me to an almost obsession with needing to understand in my mind what had happened for me at the Labyrinth. I read, I took the Veriditas Labyrinth facilitator qualification and I began to formally educate myself studying Truth from a metaphysical perspective and I threw myself into my need to comprehend my awakening. I became a CSL counselling practitioner in 2018 and have embraced the path of deep learning ever since, embracing the journey of Spiritual Leadership at the CSL Florida campus. I realise the many parts of my self that I'd willingly constructed over the years that just weren't serving me at all. Journeying to the depths of darkness and the shadow wasn't something that I had planned for at all ..... and yet this became my saving grace.
Beginning my new business as an empowerment coach and singer / songwriter bought up a lot of STUFF for me. Relationships, money, home, being a parent, being a mother, menopause, being a daughter! Life gave me MANY lemons that I was set to squeeze and the inner work that I was consciously doing became my life line. Doing the deep deep work necessary from within, when many life situations were being hurled at me, I learned that these were my saving graces, my Sparkling challenges and my adventures to overcome. I was becoming great at learning how to breakthrough old patterns and accept many life events and situations from the place of deep gratitude. Facing and breaking through my fair share of lack beliefs beliefs around money, prosperity and wealth and self worth has been the central focus of my personal journey and been the guiding light for me to create Stand In Your Prosperity Power. This I am blessed to share with you now.
As a mentor and counselor I realise that the challenges that face us in the depths are the golden opportunities for treasured growth and I also know that the light that sparkles through everything even through feelings of pain, upset, fear, vulnerability and guilt. This light is here right now sparkling through you and me and through everything and this light is the golden opportunity of expanded love, joy, prosperity, health, wealth, creativity and a brilliant life. From my decision to say yes to the Rainbow that came out on that day of transition, has come an outburst of creativity, my singing voice, my children's self awareness teacher training programme OmmaySing Me, and my deep desire to be of service to life, to YOU, as you say yes to shining your light and Standing in Your True Inner POWER.